Hi Tommy,

Yes, you are right. Meditation does not seem easy. While meditating those thoughts come back and I end up fighting with them. I have been reading book on mindfulness by Thich Nhat Hanh. While the book provides simple way to bring mind into the body, practicing it seems a challenge and I get swayed. I find peace for few minutes then the momentum breaks which I do not realise.

Hi Helcat,

Yes, you are right on “The only difference between happiness and depression is a state of mind”. While for a certain moment I have this feeling and I feel calm. Then there are triggers and I get engulfed by fear, anxiety, guilt, shame and helplessness. Waking up in the morning is the worst time for me and all I feel is getting scared, anxious and helplessness.

Thank you sharing your experience on therapy. I am sorry for the pain you have endured.

Hi Anita,

”the negative thoughts are connected to intense painful emotions in your brain. Imagine thinking the same thoughts but without the emotions attached to them. Imagine thoughts no longer being dangerous or scary; thoughts no longer being a source of pain”.  I have not given thought about this. But will give it a try.

Yes, I have asked my brother about his feelings about me sharing my feelings. He has assured me that he is fine with that. In fact, he regularly checks me on his own and ask about my feelings. May be this is just me overthinking about it.

Thank you all for taking time to go through my post and for your response. There are few moments when I feel relaxed and posting here is one of them.