Hey helcat!
thank you so much for your words!!
growing up i’d say my childhood was fairly good besides having divorced parents who would fight like nobody was around. They are actually friends now. Besides that I think i lost feelings briefly because we no longer saw each other a lot. I’m scared now that the feeling of not wanting him will come back but I’ve tried to be happier about the fact that I love him in my life and I hope I will feel more stable in the future.