Dear Anita,

Hi, can’t believe another week has passed by.

I am slowly adjusting to my pace. I begin to get used to being alone in the house. Honestly I have always been a person who can be alone. I travel alone, i watch movie alone, i go jog alone, and enjoy it. I enjoy being with her since I also be myself, most of the time, or at least happily accommodate most of the time when I was with her. But otherwise, I actually can be by myself.

There were days when I thought about the past and her, and that there was a few times i burst into tears. Yesterday she returned something and put it in the lobby of my building. I don’t know why but I cried immediately when I stepped foot in my flat. I think this is another evidence that she is not coming back, probably that’s why. She still has something left in my flat, I realized today when I was digging things out. I guess she missed that part of the flat.

If she came back today, I think I would still want to be together. I still miss her quite a lot, and my heart aches from to time.However, I also feel that I am moving on to find myself and to try to see other people and the world. Not that I would  committ to anything or anyone at this point, or actively looking for a relationship. but I guess it’s not harm to see the world and explore it a bit. O

On top of the plant, I also got some photos of my family and my travel, and I hang them around the house. I feel this made the flat belongs to me a bit more.

Hope all is well on your side.

Clara