Hi Lilly-Mae

It’s good to hear that you have a care team and are receiving support. Have you let them know about the situation and how you have been feeling? If not, I hope that you do. It is important that you are safe.

I know what it is like to have childhood trauma. Apart from professional mental health support, meeting lots of kind people was the most healing thing for me. You don’t need to suffer forever and you certainly don’t deserve that. I’m sorry that you hate yourself. I don’t for a second buy that you are some kind of unworthy unlovable monster. You deserve to be treat well, to have people in your life that genuinely care about you and you deserve to be happy.

I cannot say the same for your abuser.

Love and best wishes! ❤️🙏