<p class=”p1″>Dear Anita</p>
<p class=”p1″>Good to know you are well. Have more sleep if possible. and exercise and eat well. so you have more physical and mental energy for yourself snd those who need you.</p>
<p class=”p1″>yes i think she represents those inagines. but rather than making it so negatively, i think she represents a life that i aspire to have. having someone who is supportive, willing to stand by you, accepting and caring. realistically, i think she fails in reaching the standard i look for. nonetheless, i still miss the imagination/ image.</p>
<p class=”p1″>I was re reading some of our conversations recently. i didnt get it very well when you mentioned “breaking up with you is the solution”</p>
<p class=”p1″>when i sat on it again, i started to understand breaking up is the way out for her to escape her emotions. by breaking up with me and have a convenient reason/ more commonly agreed upon reason that she has lost feelings for me, this allows her to escape from me and thus no need to dig out the way she relates to me and others. thus no need to reflect. </p>
<p class=”p1″>it makes sense now that she was in such pain: she might not even want the break up to some extend. say i want to run a marathon and got cold feet and just say “ i am not interested its not for me” . this is a lie to myself and the negative feelings associated with me lying to myself, will unconsciously affect me. because what i said and did, was not genuine.</p>
<p class=”p1″>but of couse, the break up can also be something that she really wanted( then i also cannot fully explain why she is in such a pain after u get something that u realy want, anyways)</p>
<p class=”p1″>to answer your question: no i do no need for someone to save me. i think i would practice loving myself or my little self more so i feel the warmth and love from inside</p>
<p class=”p1″>Have a lovely day </p>
<p class=”p1″>Clara</p>