Dear Anita,

” excellent insight, I am impressed!”

– Thank you for acknowledging this as an insight, it helps to remind myself, otherwise, sometimes insights come and go.

” I am thinking that to tap into/ to be One with Shakti, it takes trusting yourself to be a good person first, because you wouldn’t allow a bad person all that power and capability. I wouldn’t.”

This is a really good point I will continue to think about. What comes to mind immediately is that there are things I fear that I am, that I don’t want to be. But some of those things I am also unsure if they are true, or they are just what I have been told. Like F’s accusing me of being selfish, controlling and manipulative, all things that infact, he is. The things I watch out for in myself, because I don’t want to be them: selfishly controlling situations, not empathizing with others, not listening to others, thinking I know better/ superiority complex, or over-extending of myself to others emotional needs.

Even writing this I know that my awareness of it already makes it less likely I will be these things, but I think I worry more that I will accidentally be a bad person.. selfish, self righteous, rude, prideful/ greedy etc.

Maybe all the seeing the unknown unknowns that you mentioned yesterday starts with seeing- with conviction- that you are a good person.

– Eye opening and sad, is that I don’t have an initial instinct on how to see myself as more good. It does help to have people like K, sent to me from the universe to tell me. But, I do agree it has to truly come from me, cause it is easy to just not believe others opinions. I know I have good aspects, and I am optimistic I see myself as majorly good, a lot of the time, but definitely not fully.

Do you see yourself as fully good?

Seaturtle