Woah man Woah!!!
You are really in need of some advice and there is this person I know whom you can trust whole-heartedly and that person is YOU man YOU!!!
From your posts I can see that you are way too much thinking about other people opinion.(i know it’s hard with always surrounded by people to not get influenced by their words)
Ask yourself man :”Were you born this way?”. If yes then go ahead and live your life the way it is right now but if the answer is NO then you got some work to do dude!!!
And the painful and lonely weekends you mention, yaa i can relate to that and what i have found is that like we are busy in our heads, other people too are busy in their own heads with their own problems. They ain’t got time to think for that.
Now, people may recommend you meditation and stuff and yaa that really works for them. GREAT!!!but not for me!!!
So here is the wikipedia page for VICTIM MENTALITY that you are having. Please don’t take it offensely because I myself have that and you can conquer it too!!!Good luck
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Victim_mentality
And here’s the google search:
https://www.google.com.np/?gws_rd=cr&ei=1BtVU8ClHIeMrQe8hIHQBA#q=victim+mentality
Woah i am really laughing as i can see someone i can really relate to!!!