Hello Adam Sparks!

I read your post yesterday and found myself responding to it in an interesting way 🙂 At first, I found it hard to relate, because of the superficial differences. I don’t know what it’s like to be a young man in love with another young man. So my brain wasn’t able to find any useful information from my own past to fit your situation. This ended up being a good thing, because I wasn’t able to project my own fears and past hurts onto you. I read your post and just felt this joy reading how much love you have for this man. He really seems to be very precious to you, and I find that to be very precious in itself.

The “bad stuff” that may happen in relationships is usually the result of our fears of bad stuff happening. We panic and try to control the situation. You already know that you can not control the love that you feel. You also acknowledge that he is far away and might want company locally, and you’ve accepted that, not wanting to control him. Perhaps the next step is to acknowledge that you are powerless in front of this great love, and that it’s OK. If you were in total control of the situation, your feelings and him, it wouldn’t be the same anymore. Romantic love needs a bit of uncertainty in order to exist. Knowing that the other person is free, yet still decides to share themselves with you is really quite wonderful.

Cherish the feeling that you have and cherish him. Don’t let the fears take over and kill the feelings that you have.

I also want to thank you for sharing a bit of your life, because reading your post made me understand myself a bit better and I actually feel butterflies in my own stomach because of how you describe your love for him. Love really is so very wonderful and thrilling.