Good morning Albana,
Don’t feel sorry about anything at this moment. Look, it’s totally acceptable that you can’t concentrate on any work at hand. Try to explain to your boss if you feel you should. I’m now studying in Canada. I came to Canada because of my ex. I’ll have exams this week but I totally messed up my easter holidays that are supposed to prepare for my exams. There is just no way you can get over everything immediately. I vent a lot to my parent and friend around me. I spent a lot of time online searching for others’ stories and wisdom that help me get through all this. We are in the same situation and doing the same thing.

Age difference…I don’t know. She thought that I was too immature, which may be a big reason for breakup. She’s 26 and I’m 26. He’s 39, and therefore he’s supposed to protect you and take care of you, but he didn’t. So why do you bother yourself about him? I know you feel so bad that he seems not hurt at all. But remember, no matter what he really thinks, what he feels is irrelevant to what you feels. What are you hoping for? If he feels bad, he may can’t help and back to you?

Now what you need to do is to follow some tips in the article you shared to me. Thanks a lot for your shared link, it’s a great article. The most important step is to start, today. Stop contact with him, or any his families. Stop looking for reasons and how he feels. Accept the breakup, embrace the impermanence. Dating with yourself……I read an article about dating yourself, sorry I can’t find the article at this moment…basically, it says that you should treat yourself very well. You used to cook for him, now cook for yourself. Go to a very nice restaurant and enjoy a great dinner. Do anything that may make you feel happy. I know you don’t want to do anything now, you only want to lock yourself and grief. But just try to push yourself a little bit hard. Again, time heals everything. I hope you can get better day by day. You’re always welcomed to talk with me.