Hi Alice

You sound very down in yourself at the moment and I know how that feels, I have been there.
To give yourself a chance in life of love and happiness I would say that you would be best to move and and go through the hurting phase. You will come out the other end and you will meet someone else, Promise……

Do you suffer from Depression or Anxiety? You mention feeling bad towards yourself and wanting bad things to happen to you. It sounds to me that you are suffering Anxiety and Low Self Esteem. Do you not have any friends or close family that you could talk to about this?

TRacey xx