Hi Plaedes

I am sorry for your suffering.

Hey, you are confusing perfectionism with OCD. You are exhibiting many of the features of OCD. This is way different from being a silly perfectionist. Mental health issues used to be a taboo many years ago. Nowadays, the statistics on these are alarming. Most of us will go through some form of mental health trauma in our lifetime. So it is not such a big deal anymore but getting the right treatment is important for your overall optimal functioning in the society. Suggest you see your psychiatrist again. Share these notes with him or her. You will also benefit from seeing a psychologist and implementing small goals in your life such as exercising, good nutrition, adequate sleep every night, meditation or breathing exercises, gratitude offering etc.

And remember, Plaedes is awesome as he is. You were given a full plate, which you couldn’t cope with in your circumstances and things are now spilling over in a not so good way. How much longer would you like to continue with this ?

Your parents are who they are. They will remain who they are until they leave the body. Do not spend any time trying to alter that fact. You are who you are but you are not willing to accept that. Can you be a little more kind to yourself, pls.

If it was me who was going through these issues, I would seek professional help most importantly (Tiny Buddha is great for self development, venting out, sharing experiences etc but it is not a professional resource. You will hear only opinions here and every opinion will be different). Once stable on medical treatment, plan to leave the country for 6 months and go somewhere else with your GF (if you want to take her along). Refresh and start a new chapter in life. You are NOT going to win this family business battle in the near future, however, you can win the self battle with a persistent but kind effort.

Good luck and may your worn out soul find the refuge it seeks. Sending you loads of unconditional love.

Blessings

J