My heart goes out out to you, sounds like we both know the same pain pretty well! It’s tough when your brain tells you one thing and your heart wants to go the other way. I just keep trying to tell myself that I’m strong and deserving of love and I’m gonna be ok with or without her. I find it helpful to say these things out loud, it really works to hear it! Healing is certainly a process and even though every little thing is painful and some days are rough, I’m sure we’ll both get clear of it and someday look back from a place of happiness. I think it’s really important when we feel jealous and rejected to remind ourselves it’s not like the other person is setting out to make us feel bad, they’re living their lives and doing their own thing. The hurt comes in when it’s not doing it with US anymore, but we’re just as important and worth of love so hang in there. I will, too!