Thanks, folks. This is really a supportive community on here. Still working hard on breaking the addiction, trying to keep my mind from constantly wandering to her. The ball of anxiety in my stomach is always there when I wake up everyday, it’s very tiring. I’ve tried quite a few relaxation and meditation techniques with a little success, but it always creeps back in. I do find listening to things like the above youtube link brings me some peace, so I will keep listening to those and keep trying to move onward.