Thank you Sammykins. Yes I am scared and I’ve always been a confident person so to find that I’m actually scared to be alone also feels ridiculous as while I had a long term relationship previously I’ve lived alone for 7 years. So you think I’d like my own company! And I do, but this whole situation has left me feeling like i’m isolated and totally alone, so you’re right I think I’m putting myself under pressure to make decisions to change that in order to find happiness. I haven’t worked out how to just be, or to find myself.
Thank you for your kind words, it means a lot to me. x