Hi Chloe
I’ve had the same problem but only realised it when I was dumped by an amazing guy who I had been brave enough to open up to. We broke up for other reasons but I have felt completely destroyed by being dumped as I’d taken a risk in being so open with him. However, we’ve been able to part on good terms and I’ve realised as painful as the last few months have been for me I’ve needed it to find out who I really am and what I want for myself without my parents approval being needed, which is a bit pathetic since I’m 32. The fact they have been disappointed about my emotional state during this time made me realise how much I’ve been doing for so long in order to get their approval/praise without even realising it.
I’m finding it tough so I expect you will, but try to do things for you, to make you happy. And the next guy you meet please do be brave and open up, when you trust him tell him your fears and your desires. It might end up in disaster, (like for me) but you’ll feel stronger for it in the end, and you never know it might lead you to happiness.
Best wishes x