Im new to the forum, but I found your post interesting. I think right now you are overwhelmed with the feeling of moving past college. I myself just recently graduated and am moving away from home/college/family/friends and its a scary feeling. It sounds like you’re less confident without the support of friends in your life and that is the first step you need to work on.

Be happy with yourself and also for your friends to finally accomplish graduating college. You have to understand that friends/people move on in life and some friends come and go. Just because they haven’t kept up as much as you expected doesn’t mean they dont care still. There’s never anything wrong than being the one to initiate the conversation with them, but realize that it’s just alot of anxiety right now because you became so comfortable with these close friends and now they’re gone.

My best advice would be to work on being confident by yourself and creating new friendships. The reality is – as people become more distant from one another, they tend to communicate less, but that doesn’t mean they still don’t care for one another. People will come and go in life and I agree 100% that it is hard to deal with, but things get better if you try to establish new relationships and worry less about those friends you had in the past. I’m sure its hard for them too, but they are also working on themselves to achieve new goals and encounter new experiences. Stay in touch with your friends, but don’t let it hold you back from meeting new friends as well. Also, forget the past about your HS friend. At that age, we’re still too young to understand the meaning of a true friend or friendship. There are plenty of HS friends I had who I thought would still be in my life for years, but the reality is we all moved in different directions and now I haven’t seen them in years.

I wish you the best and remember to not let these college friends hold you back from being confident in yourself or meeting new people. You have to accept that now you’re all far apart from one another you’ll communicate less, but still care for each other and have memories you’ll all never forget.