The best friend and I have been trying to work towards something though we aren’t in a relationship yet, he just got out of a relationship of almost 2 years and he said he isn’t up for anything serious yet but wouldn’t mind one in the future. Hence the more than friends, less than lovers situation. Which I have thought about calling off since it has begun to feel like a chore to try and balance on that line. I am sure that if we called it now that we would still be friends, but at the same time I wonder if we would ever be more in the future if I called it off now. The downhill spiral really began in the middle of last year when my mental health just began to plummet. It became progressively worse as I began to notice my friend acting strange and then coming to find out she had huge issues with me that whole year. I am at my rock bottom now after a few fights with her and our final fight leading no hope for a possible relationship with her later because of my own persistence for understanding in the situation.
You were helpful though and I don’t believe my situation was on the scale of your’s by any means, but sharing what you have gone through really is eye opening to me and is comforting in the fact that I am not the only one who can experience this.