Ok, I will try not to sound like your mom. LOL I have had an abortion, well actually two of them. I still to this day think about those children and wonder what my life would be if I had carried through with it. Try not to beat yourself up over your decision. It is done. There is no do over on this one. You deal with the grief and it gets better over time. You need to build your confidence and self worth. I still struggle with this daily. You need to learn to accept being alone before you can deal with a relationship. You have to learn to make yourself happy before you can begin a relationship with someone else. This is the HARDEST think we women will EVER have to do. We are taught by birth that we are meant to be with a man, that there is something wrong with us if we don’t have a relationship, that we are supposed to get married at a specific time, have babies by a specific time, yada yada, I call B.S.!! Live your life, you are young, look at all the good things in your life, family, friends, good job, I can draw/photography/sculpt, I volunteer, etc. what ever is the good in your life, write it down. Believe me, I have no job, no home (I live with friends and family wherever I can),no money, no college education, etc. I could lay down and wallow in self pitty (and I have) but I won’t and neither should you. Be proud, your a beautiful human being who believes in love and wants love, there is nothing wrong with that. You make mistakes in life. Don’t be ashamed of them, just learn from them and move on. Give yourself a hug for surviving this hurtful world and give yourself time to heal. Hugs from another human still on her own journey.