Thanks Matt and Jasmine for taking the time to reply.

@ Matt: You made me think I rarely notice that I have actually made some progress. It’s something I tend to dismiss but it would be good to remember I’m already walking my path. It’s true I at least have an idea of what I want to do and think my reasons for it are good. I hear you on being patient and taking the time to develop myself step by step. Thank you very much.

@ Jasmine: It’s good reading your answer seeing you have the experience I lack. Thanks for such an elaborate reply. I’m no buddhist either, I just find some of the ideas Buddhism promotes to be attractive for me. I read everything you had to say and will re-read it later to get as much from it as I can.
It caught my attention where you mentioned the difference between knowing a concept and truly understanding it. I don’t delude myself, I know I barely understand such deep concepts. At least it can be something I strive for right? I will keep trying to improve myself and trust it will get me to a place of both success and peace.