Matt:

You put the matter into angles that I’ve never thought of, not at least when using the metaphore of Atlas. Yes, it’s very true that I imagine that I alone can carry my own burdens on my shoulders – along with other people’s burdens as well. I never asked for help – until now. Or at least, I ask for wider perspectives than I myself manage to produce. Alternative ways of thinking, leading me away from my squirrel wheel of habitual acting. Thank you, you are a bright star of inspiration!

I will definitely scedule the metta meditation, every second day for two weeks and then evaluate the effect. I already keep a ”mind diary”, where I write down the processing of my thoughts about the situation. It makes wonders to actually write down your forthgoing analyze of what’s going on. It’s easier to remember what ideas you have gotten that way, and help you develope the analyzes as you get a deeper understanding of the underlying reasons of your outer reactions.

As you can see, this is my systematic part trying to organize the work on understanding the emotional part. Though, I am still only at the understanding-what’s-going-on-state. I presume the next step will be to actually start investigate how these two can cooperate.

Weston:

Your method sounds… unusual and interesting. I will definitely try it, starting tonight! An faschinating act, to actually give ”physical life” to the two forces/beings/parts, allowing them both to say what’s on their hearts. It’s like giving two states of mind the same authority and showing them the same respect as you would to concious organisms. As if each of them actually had a will of their own. Interesting perspective indeed. Thank you for the input!