I think I might need to print out Matt’s response and read it every day 🙂

I am exhausted wondering about one person in my life and whether or not it’s something or nothing and is it going somewhere or never going anywhere. The good thing is that the exhaustion is starting to overthrow the fear and desire to control and it’s becoming easier to let go. Also the pain caused by the situation kind of drives me to be more present in my own life, as it’s much more pleasurable than wondering about the “what ifs”.

The most difficult aspect has been the idea of “do I reserve a place for them next to me, and if so, for how long?” But I suppose life is dynamic and if someone else swoops in and I like them enough, then why wait for something that might never happen? I have made my own feelings clear, so there ought to be no regrets. Why hold onto something and prevent progress and the possibility of dreams coming true in a way that I can not see right now?

…and sorry. I realise that wasn’t helpful 🙂 I was just…erm…ruminating!