Kelly,

Thank you for your apology but it’s not necessary. I wasn’t offended as such but I do feel that I’m not explaining things very well and that I’m placing people I care about in a bad light and this is not what I want because it’s really not true.
I really don’t know how his wife would react because I don’t know her but I personally don’t see anything wrong with giving someone a friendly peck on the cheek whether it be male or female. I’m not conservative in that way, I’m a bit of a touchy feely type. I like to hug people and am very affectionate, it’s the way I was brought up. I understand that some people may take this the wrong way but it really saddens me that we can’t hug and show each other affection in this world without it being seen as inappropriate or in some way sexual.

As for being excited by the situation, I’m really not. I wish desperately that I didn’t have these feelings towards him because it’s painful. It would be much simpler for me if these feelings didn’t exist and my connection with him didn’t exist but they do so I came on here to try and get some advice on how to deal with the feelings and move past them. However I’m sensing now that I’m not putting myself across very well which is why I said I’ll just leave it here. Nothing to do with your post offending me so please don’t worry about that.