thanking Manolo for showing the patience to read my problem. From the time i realised that I have difficulty in perceiving the advice given by people. I have tried approaching few counsellors and a psychiatrist.. Either they dont listen completely or start giving medicine which resulted in excess sleep and memory loss. Then i started telling to every people who across my life, just to get a solution. But i realize that its always harmful to tell everything to everyone.. At my place there are very less counsellors and i cant go to another state for counselling as it is not affordable and i might loose my job..
I am longing to change myself, but how far i have tried for that i am not sure.. Even if i try something i forget after few days.. dont know why i am conscious everytime. people say that i am not serious abt my issues that why i am not taking conscious effort. I lack consistency in evrything I do.. Being a psychiatric social worker I know that i have to just change the mindset.. But i will give try as u have said.. i just hope that after i start the process i dont forget or loose consistency.. I fu have any more advices please do u give..u r always welcome