No dear… only the last few sentences were only hurting…
just think from my end..dealing with all these for nearly three decades is not an easy task.. even i know it will take time…
there are several people like me who have thousands of questions in mind… i didnt show any anger to anyone.. i am grateful to all those people who tried to advice me with patience….. Even u know well that this resentment wont go off overnight… I request pls bear with me

i just want to know what is that triggers me.. why is that i get angry or dull/ emotional before the occurance of the event.. why i cant it lightly