Hey there Jasmine
Yeah I am extremely happy about marrying the love of my life ofcourse but you know when you are really happy but sometimes when you are all alone your mind wanders? Yeah well thats what happens with me and my friend , when I am just hanging out alone and looking through my phone it kind of bugs me , not really thinking of her motives , more of “what happened” and why are we not friends anymore and then I sit and wonder if it was jealousy or did I actually do something to hurt her? Or is it just because we are both growing older and changing ourselves? That was the whole point of this post , not to talk bad about her or to decide she was jealous , it was to ask for opinions on whether this could be jealousy or could it be something I might have done to her and if I should try to fix it or let her go. Sadly I know that deep down there is something bigger than me worrying about her that is bugging me , it might be the fact that I feel like I don’t have many close friends, or the fact that I may not be so sure of the decisions I make? I’ll have to sit and really think about exactly what it is that is bothering about this subject , the funny thing is , is that she just acts like we aren’t really friends not even that she is mad at me or anything , just kind of like … Ok whatever kind of thing . Oh and then again , when it comes to you saying that I seem happy yet also not so happy , that is basically the problem I am having , is that I feel like I am letting her steal my joy (or letting this thought steal it) while these is supposed to be the happiest days of my life