I agree with Jasmine. It seems that you are taking a victim’s stance on your situation with your parents and with your life in general. I don’t say that to attack you, but I have learned that taking responsibility for yourself and your actions is the only way to happiness.

I’m recalling a point in a book that I am reading that may be helpful to you, if you will let it. All relationships come down to 2 basic choices: adapt or let go. If you cannot adapt (because it is impossible to change others, unless they decide to change themselves) as suggested above by Inky, letting go will be your only option for your own happiness. In the process of “letting go”, you would need to understand that your relationship with your parents is toxic, and although there may be reasons for staying (feeling guilty, etc.), taking care of yourself often comes with a high price. If you are unwilling to pay the price, you are still responsible for your choice.