Hey Everyone, Thanks for the posts so far. Didi2136, I agree with you about having patience even though that is kinda tough to do. Big Blue, I honestly feel like I would not be able to wait around for 2 more years. I have been through a lot in life and I’m very emotionally strong but it can get tiring. It already has been about 2 and a half years. They have been in relationship after relationship and I have tried to be there for them as a friend during these times and I became extremely jealous and somewhat insecure as if my place in their life was fading and they had no use for me. Obviously my expectations and desire for them was being seen through a “relationship” type of lens versus a “friendship” perspective and that is what led to these disagreements. Although I have always remained hopeful that I could love for the both of us but in reality it only leads to me being drained. I feel it is best to move on and not torture or trick myself in to believing I could change their feelings. This kinda borders on the idea of unrequited love so it seems. Interested in seeing you and others feedback on this! 🙂
Cyd