Popi,

If you’re looking for some meditation help, consider a local Buddhist sangha. They often have low cost or free classes, as well as group meditation. All good stuff.

Popi, it sounds to me like this push toward FB is you trying to find something in yourself that you’re missing. Consider, perhaps when you were close with him, you felt like a princess. Now, when you feel lonely, perhaps the ache for FB is the ache for yourself, that feeling of being a princess again. So when he posts “I love…” you imagine yourself as that object of his love. When he posts “I miss…” you imagine yourself as that object of his longing. As though he gives you that feeling.

But Popi, dear sister, he doesn’t give you anything. That feeling inside yourself is yours… you’re only stuck letting him inspire it, falsely thinking that its a prince that makes the princess royal. This is false. You were born royal, have always been royal, and can’t be anything but royal… no one can give or take that from you. Said differently, when you wash the dishes, it is a princess washing dishes with a quiet mind. When you are doing laundry, it is a princess doing laundry with a quiet mind. When you are checking FB, it is a princess checking FB with a busy mind. Busy looking for him, the feeling, the knowing that you’re a princess… perhaps scared, mad, sad, that he’s not helping you see that anymore. Its OK though, just head to the mirror, sister, and there you are! Perhaps you’ve just been a little too busy looking everywhere for someone to give you your crown to notice its been on your head the whole time!

With warmth,
Matt