Thanks Inky, I appreciate the links. Again I originally posted to inquire if anyone who comes to this forum has had a similar experience. I’m not fond of the term either (soulmate) but didn’t know what other term to use because we don’t mate but feels like a familiar soul? Don’t know. I felt this moment was planned long ago because he really helped my soul grow. My husband is someone I love but even he refers to himself as soul-less, so while I feel he is my lifemate, I don’t see how he can be a soulmate unless he recognizes that about himself. I don’t doubt I was living in fear at the onset of this. The anger that became so familiar (again, not directed at me, but feels scary) had escalated and I was wanting to run. It has been an interesting year. I have faith that we are lifemates. I wish he could trust me when I tell him how wonderful he is (yes, he has been rotten, too) and maybe he has trust issues from his past, but he almost drives a bigger wedge when closeness starts to happen. I am hopeful. I think a break through is coming.