Thank you for all your kind words.
Everyday is a struggle and some are better than others but I do try and find something positive in each day. I study and teach aikido (The way of harmony) a defensive martial art, which has always been good at grounding me and I have thrown myself back into it but even then I still struggle to focus, she is always in my mind.
My friends have been very good and I have spent a lot of time with them and I have more therapy sessions coming up, including a mindfulness course and a few job opportunities have come my way, it just seems like I’m filling the void, trying to keep occupied rather than doing these things to improve my self or my situation.
The lack of sleep is definitely not helping.