Wow90,

I am older than you and I feel that I am doing the same thing. Depending on our upbringing, you need to plan your life to the T! When plans go awry, anxiety sets in, self-doubt and all the negative stuff you can think of. I always lived unconventionally (to the utter dismay of my parents) and never fully felt their support. It carried through my adulthood when becoming pregnant with my first child and not married (but with a partner). Life took turns I did not expect and now, I feel in a rut, even though I should probably be grateful for a lot of things. You have gotten higher education and that is great! What I miss is breathing life, not just going through the motions. You are young and you should grab opportunities, not worrying about where they will take you. I wish sometimes that I could take certain risks but with a family, I cannot. Take advantage of your ‘freedom’ and go out there and live! Whatever happens you can always find your way back to a job. I have learned that jobs and careers do not define us (unlike what my parents believed). We define our path, and though it might at times seem unorthodox or a bit scary, we grow through our experiences. I hope that you will live your life, take chances and see where they take you! Just remember to trust your gut instincts along the way!