Faber,

In addition to G’s tender words, consider reading “When Things Fall Apart” by Pema Chodron. You’re experiencing grief, which is painful, disorienting at times, but heals, the past passes through. Said differently, your heart perhaps has some stink on it, and the dreams and feelings are your body’s way of scrubbing. The more you can breathe, be peaceful, spacious with your feelings (rather than running with them, trying avoid, escape, or explain), the easier balance and stability return.

With warmth,
Matt