Thank you both so much for your replies. It’s been a very tough week. Part of me knows that I made the right decision, the other part is still plagued with guilt and now I’m wondering if I’ll ever find someone again.
I am doing my best to let him go. He told me that he is going to counseling and I hope he follows through and gets help. He deserves to be happy and not feel bad about himself all the time. I last saw him on Sunday when he came to get stuff from my house. He seems to understand that I think we both need to move on, but he’s having trouble accepting that. He cried a lot, especially when I tried to give him back the engagement ring. It gutted me from the inside out, he was sobbing on my shoulder, and I hated hurting him so much. He never took the ring; he said he just couldn’t stand having it right now.
I am doing my best just to move on and be at peace. I want us both to be happy and find “the one” eventually, if that really exists. I just feel like such a horrible person for causing him pain, despite the things that happened between us. I just hope this gets better for both of us.
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