Sapna,

Its good to hear from you, and I’m sorry its uncomfortable over there. This whole Sapna family prophecy stuff is hogwash… even though it can feel “carved in”, its still only a habit that can be abandoned, and healed. Its not permanent, inherent, or destined… its more like an accent. Consider a different view. You broke free. Had to fly away, move away, but you did it! Now, of course, there is the hermit, the cave where we go to learn self reliance. Don’t despair, dear sister, you’re stronger than you think, and we all need help from time to time. A few things came to heart as I read your words.

Consider how its good that you didn’t get to just cycle into another relationship. Really, sis, its important to feel OK alone. And here you are, in a far off land, surrounded by lots of new and interesting places to explore. I have a close friend that went to Ireland to find himself, and by and large he did. Old energy there, and festive. 🙂 The whole “relationship maze” becomes a lot easier when we find our own heartsong (such as befriending yourself, instead of judging) learning to treat ourselves more kindly, and so on. Sometimes the best way to untangle a knot is to step away, rekindle our own light, and regroup. That’s why the hermit goes into the cave… to get some space between herself and the situation, find her lightness of step.

Said differently, consider dropping the maze, sis, and go explore. Go find some old trees and give them a hug. 🙂 The answers your heart seeks are perhaps found more easily in nature than in people. Especially with codependency habits lurking. Take a break, breathe, give it some time. Sapna the Bold, off on her greatest adventure!

With warmth,
Matt