As Westerners, we don’t think about death. But the Buddhists would tell small children, “If you want to think about anything, ponder on when the hour will be when you die.” (!) So a Master might say to you, “You’re doing good, kid!” LOL

In all seriousness, though, you are experiencing Existential Terror. I’ve had bouts of that, in the car. (Not good.) It passes.

Instead of blocking it, maybe go all in. Read up on all the Stages of Dying. Know what to do, and what papers to collect, when your parents are leaving this earth. (There’s a great series on this in Oprah Magazine this month). Go to a Buddhist teacher and tell him/her your concerns ~ they will help you. Who better? .. Meditate on the fact that we’re not afraid of losing our consciousness when we go to sleep, and death is no different. Do you remember your past lives? Probably not, but your likes, habits and inclinations can give you a clue! Read The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying.

IF you are becoming prone to panic attacks anyway, get a lot of sunlight, and clean up your diet. If that doesn’t help, a physician.

But most importantly, and paradoxical to the laundry list above, give most of your attention to your school, friends and family. That is what life is now all about, and the lesson of death ~ to enjoy life.