Hi sam,

First off, as keyara said: you are very strong to reach out for help. I cant tell you how many people just fall into a hole they cant get out of because they keep all of their feelings to themselves.

I will start out by saying that i too have severe anxiety. I had an episode a few months back that left me depersonalized, out of it, stressed and detatched. I felt like i was in a dream and i hated it. I had terrible thoughts that scared me to death. Then i found help. I reccomend you look up paul david and his anxietynomore website. It will certainly help with the anxiety. The anxiety bothers me very little now.

As for all of your external problems, all i can say is to keep going. Everything that is happening toyou is not meant to overshadow you. Its your life, your choice. Life is way way too short to live like that. Quit the job if you hate it, trust me working at a job you hate will have bad effects on you physically and mentally. I also reccommend meditation. It may seem rediculous at first but it helps manage stress. Just realize that all this will make you stronger, but only if you wish to be. Dont have any self pity and realize that its okay to feel insecure, depressed and anything else. It means youre alive. Keep on going and just have faith that life will be better in the future. If you have any questions please feel free to ask. Im learning new things everyday about how to handle life and would be glad to share.

Kevin