Hi Luna,
Wow, 19. You need to go out and party and have fun. You don’t see it looking forward, but I see it looking back. The most important thing is:
1) Have a plan or goal
2) Stay the course

As long as you at least have a plan/goal, you will get where you need to be. My plans have changed a thousand times in life. Believe me, it is more important to have a plan than what the plan is or how to get to the promised land.

You are sweet, you want to make a difference in this world and you will make a difference in this world. Good luck to you and much peace to you