Crystal, I recognize similar feelings and I share your sorrow. I’m proud of how you’ve made an effort to find the whole you, to accept yourself in this time and this space. The ebb and flow of being lonely at its lowest can bruise the spirit. I’m not sure of your social activities, but can only suggest you start perhaps by moving out and about town with groups of people. Someone’s bound to notice your smile, your sense of humor, your perfume, you. Perhaps meetup.com with it’s many, many activities will have a group or two that includes mixed male/female settings — from book reviews to painting and bring your own wine. I’m sending you a virtual hug and wishing you the very best. Think of your new year and your new life starting — right now.