Dear Steve,
Bad Steve, bad bad bad. You should be better. You should be focusing on good stuff, you should be participating in life, you should be positive. Now I’ve reprimanded you like you are doing to yourself. Do you feel better. Do you need some type if punishment for feeling bad? Read that last sentence again, my friend. You should feel bad, you are in a bad situation in a very uneasy part of your life. You have a right to feel a bit screwed and jealous. I do. My life sucks right now. But it was only when I acknowledged that I had a right to feel the way I do that I found the power within myself to start moving forward again. It’s slow going. Hard to get out of bed most days, and I feel alone surrounded by people I feel have it better than I do. But I own those feelings. They are mine now and no one can judge them, not even me. And when the time comes that your spirit is ready to get on with it, it will. Until then, just keep saying “I’m a happy person” over and over in the mirror. No it won’t make you happy, but it may make you eventually laugh at it’s absurdity!