We’ve all been there, lovely. I called sobbing and crying at midnight, more than a week after we broke up, and said I was going to come over to wherever he was to talk things out RIGHT NOW. Turned out he was getting hot and heavy with another girl at the time, so my presence would not have been welcomed, lol!

Best thing I can advise is try to see the situation through the eyes of someone who loves and cares for you very much. Yes, you made a bit of a tit of yourself 🙂 You’re not the first, and you won’t be the last. Try to laugh at it. Shame can’t survive a dose of laughter

If you’re not ready to see him yet, don’t go. But as xwhy says, you have nothing to prove to him. You’re human and bighearted. That’s admirable.