Thank you for the replise. I wish i could say that you advices helped me, but right now im even more depressed than i was at the moment i created the thread. I guess, i can’t help myself and nothing else will save me from this deadly misery.

>Get busy
I have work and studies everyday and it still doesnt distract me. No matter what i do and with whom i talk – there is always this burden of the memories that spoils everything i do. I started to have serious suicide thoughts once again.

>take up weightlifting or something similar
I took a few martial arts and went to gym a couple of times, but then my rage has been replaced with heavy depressive apathy – i don’t have energy for anything, just lying in bed for hours, crying and feeling like sh1t.

>Make those ****s see that you’re far better than them.
They wont see anything, they don’t care about me at all. I never will be so rich as my ex-friend and never will be have so easy slut life as my ex-gf. No matter how many efforts i will put to change my life, they always will be better than me.

>I wish I had better advice, but all I can say is even if you feel like nothing good will ever happen again, please do not hurt or kill yourself.
I was at the small party this weekend and it turned out to be a proof that nothing good will ever happen again. It was okay experience, we sat and drink alcohol, made jokes, but i understood that i lost my ability to enjoy life. In the end i didn’t have fun at all. What the point of living if you don’t enjoy it for even a little bit? If i would not be afraid of death so much, i would end myself for now.

>you will come out of this stronger and wiser
Its very hard to believe it. I never was so weak and vulnerable as i am right now. Grown up male crying almost every day? Not really a sign of strength and wisdom.

>if you take out the positive things,
No such things in my situation.

>Go out and do the things you love
I don’t love anything. I hate this world in every aspect.

>People fall in love, SO WILL YOU AGAIN.. <3
Don't believe in the concept of romantic love anymore.

>n know that it was not ur mistake
I introduced them to each other. If its not a mistake i don’t know what it is. Its impossible to forgive yourself after such failure.