I have the same opinion as you on medication.
As far as antidepressants go, I only lasted 11 days on a drug called Sertraline.
I’d had bad experience with medication in the past so was very against the idea of anti-d’s.
It took me a while to work up the courage to take them and during the 11 days, my side effects were noticeable.
I couldn’t feel anything during sex (common side effect, for guys) and was crazy tired (I was tired as it is).
I did a few videos on the drug at the time: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bc7ir7IJfF0
I also have some videos based on mental health on my channel. Check them out if you like (this is an ongoing thing, so I’m not ‘cured’).

You’re the one to make the decision buddy.
Your situation is one which may make it necessary to take medication temporarily.
I’m not of the opinion (like so many seem to be) that you HAVE TO take medication in order to overcome depression, though.
SSRI’s and other antidepressants are quite unpredictable and nobody actually knows how (or if) they work.
The serotonin thing sounds like it makes sense, but none of it has been proven.
I still suffer from depression pretty bad at times (today I’m fine), but I’m determined to get out of it on my own terms.
I don’t personally wish to take drugs, because I believe in nature (I think society and the pressures we face create most of the problems) and wouldn’t want to rely on anything out of my control (like the drugs), so to speak.

If you decide against them (could be a good call, long-term, in my opinion), you’ll need a plan that tackles your issues from multiple perspectives.
It sounds like you had issues before this – and hey, many people do so you’re not alone – so don’t forget that.
Whether this had happened or not, you’d still need to do something for yourself.

You’ve said nothing about the rest of your life, but I’m going to guess that you either don’t have a job at the moment, or hate the one you do have. How old are you? I fancy taking a guess … 23?
Though this would set the healthiest person back, you need to carry on as best you can and think about what you want from this one live you’ve been granted. What would make you happy? If you’re bored, get out there more and do something different and interesting.

Your life doesn’t have to be the picture of doom you may be envisioning at the moment. It is very possible to move past this and become a great man. The Rock (Dwayne Johnson) was facing arrests for theft and assault when he was younger. He had $7 in his name. But, he also had some things going for him (His father and grandfather were talented wrestlers) and so he saw a path to something better. He’s doing pretty good these days. But he had to work really hard to get to where he is.

Same could happen for you; I don’t mean you’ll become a Wrestler or Hollywood actor… but you CAN turn this all around. First step is to believe that you are capable of great things. Because you are.

Hope this helps you bro.