Dude, thank you big time. I investigated your youtube blog and i must say im very surprised. You are so extroverted, bright, smart, confident and good looking guy. You life looks great – nice room, extremely cute girlfriend, music passion. You can give rock-concerts and instead you are helping some unknown lost and miserable people like myself. Its really hard to understand why you had depression problems in the first place. I know that you would say that you achived everything by hard work and you had your share of problems, but still, when i watched your videos, i could not shake the feeling like you live in some other world, where people don’t have depression. I think if you would see my life, you would be terrified. Russian poor commieblock, everything is gray, people yelling at each other at the street, im sitting in darkness, in my locked-up room with torn up soviet wallpapers, my clothes are black, my face is pale with circles under my eyes, my eyes are red after hours of drinking and smoking weed, my intoxicated mind goes back and forth between memories of my failure life and suicide thoughts. And at the other side i see your videos, where you are talking about depression and i feel like i am not alone, you know? Its great feeling.
By the way, few of your thoughts hit me hard because they are so common to me, for example you said about “animal abusers and people who getting away with murder” and this thought i had so much times at the moments when i saw this world as pure hell. I wish i could meet you in real life and talk about stuff, but i live so far away.

>You’ve said nothing about the rest of your life, but I’m going to guess that you either don’t have a job at the moment, or hate the one you do have. How old are you? I fancy taking a guess … 23?
You are quick-witted, man. I am 22 and i hate my job. It will be 6 months more of my studies and until then i can’t change my job, because its the only part-time offet i can get in my city.

Also, i did a stupid mistake, tried to get involved with another girl, when im obviously not ready for it. It made my situation worse because i realized that im not capable of attracting girls that are better than my ex. Now im having hard time to decide – should delete the crush from the social network? One month ago i found her profile and i developed a crush on her her, she is so beautiful and i thought that we had a lot in common. Long story short – we went on date, which i thought was great, and after she declined all my offers to meet again, ignored almost all my messages. I having hard time to decide – should delete her from the social network? Very sooon she probably will put relationship status with some guy and it will hurt me a lot. And she obviously wont ever write me first to ask whats going on in my life, because she doesn’t care. Im always obligated to show initiate and write her first just to be ignored. So, even if she wont put status with some guy, im sure that she will delete me herself because she keeps her friendlist very short, and it will be humiliating and painful for me. So should i delete her to avoid future humiliation and pain?