Hey man,
Firstly, know that you will never and have never given up on love. Life without love is the same thing as having DVD’s without a TV. It doesn’t work. The people closest to you have the ability to hurt you the most but would you trade that entire relationship to avoid one bad experience? Think about how much you’ve grown from that relationship, the strength you’re now gaining from suffering from the loss of it, and how much of a better person you now have the opportunity to become because of this experience. Your perception is what is making this experience so much harder. You’re battling with yourself right now and the side of you that wins this fight is the person you’re going to become after it is all said and done.

As Ghandi said, “If you want to change the world, first change yourself.” Your inner success and happiness is the first step to making that change. Life is a paradox man. Accept that and find balance. It takes effort and hard work to better yourself and it’s only after you’ve taken the first step do you slowly begin to see the benfits.

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Good luck, my friend!