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I’ve been the other person who was deeply hurt by someone who constantly lived in fear because of our love and was ashamed of me because she was ashamed of herself. So she hid me from her family, that was very painful but I will always appreciate the journey and be forever grateful for the love that we did share behind closed doors. I tried hard for 3 years to not let our relationship of 5 years go to waste, no matter the distance but It had appeared a few months ago that we were not on the same page anymore like we were when we were together. At least I can say that I did everything I could possibly do to save our relationship out of an act of love but it got turned around on me that I was a bad person for trying to save something that I believed was truly special. In the end, the truth hurts that the person I loved no longer exists and wants to walk the path of fear instead of love. Her hiding her sexuality and denying that she ever knew me to her family, along with other false accusations of me was the final nail in the coffin. I was emotionally exhausted after all these years and the stress of all these negative rumors started to affect me, so it was time to continue my journey of love in being true to myself and walk away from all the negativity and fear that was left behind. In order to stay true to my emotions, beliefs & identity, it was vital for me to disappear out of her life. I’m a person who wants to be welcomed in my partners family and not hidden from them because of shame. I wanted someone who was proud to call me the love of their life, like I used to call her the love of my life to my family and friends. So in conclusion, love is being open and not closed off to family and friends. I wasn’t used to having a girlfriend/lover hiding me from people. I had to do what was right, wish her well, thank the universe for the beautiful love we shared and the positive memories that we had when we were together and walk away knowing I was good person, even though she hated me and resented me later on for reminding her of her feelings towards me. I take my partial responsibility and she can take hers. Sometimes people come into our lives as lesson or a blessing. Take your pick but grow from it regardless and become better at mastering the real meaning of life and that is LOVE and to live honestly by being true to yourself.