Oh dear Matt,

That’s what I felt. That’s so what I felt. I’m trying to be compassionate. I’m trying to understand. I feel like… if he’s not happy with me he needs to do what is right for himself. And I need to do what makes him happy.

It’s so good to hear from someone that feels what I wrote. I appreciate and I know what other posters said is true. I know that’s what right for me. But to know that someone that went through the same as me, actually managed to get himself together, It actually makes me cry.

Have you actually… totally moved on? Or are you still trying everyday? I don’t know if I can be as strong and repeat the cycle everyday. It’s would be so tiring actually.

BUT AGAIN. I know I need to do this. I may look like I’m 15 but I’m way too old to not understand this.

Thankn you so much for all your replies.

I will work really hard to not think about it. afterall I’ve done my best. I’ve fought until the very last day. Today’s phone call had answered everything.