He made me feel crazy.

That in itself is enough to let this go.
Who needs someone to MAKE us feel crazy?
The abortion… oh my this had to hurt. He bore absolutely NO responsibility for something you now have to live with all of your life.
He hasn’t shown anything near to love for you. He is an immature player to be sure.
Living with mama and daddy… ugh.
PLEASE RUN! Run as far away from him as possible emotionally and begin to get some healing for yourself beloved.

You are carrying hurts from this relationship and your body and spirit and emotions need time to heal and repair from it.
He as sucked life from you.
We can forgive him because surely, “He knows NOT what he is doing”. And forgiveness is needed for you to move on and get free from the ties that this relationship has brought you.

This relationship needs to be remembered on some level… so as not to ever fall into this again.

Be strong in yourself.
Love yourself.
Hold your head high.
Do some self care.
Do not get into another relationship until you can heal.

You need time to process this thing you have endured.
Learn to recognize this behavior in men for the future so you won’t ever be drawn into this again.
I wish you the best and pray for your healing and restoration.

I just realized I didn’t answer your question.
The fact you need to know the answer to this makes me realize you need the self care more than ever!

WHO CARES if he realizes he messed up? But NO, he probably won’t because this isn’t about you.
This is about him because all of it is about him.
He is a player and will most likely be for some time.
It is only about you in that you allowed him to treat you this way and that is why my entire post to you is trying to help you see this.
I cannot answer your question about WHY he did this to you.
I don’t think it has anything to do with you in your level of attractiveness.
You may want to look into the possibility that you are putting yourself out there as someone who has low self worth and therefore, players like him will use you.
I know this hurts to hear and maybe I am wrong.
But from what I read from your post it sounds very likely.

• This reply was modified 9 years, 11 months ago by Maggie Black.