Thank you for the replies. It’s just so hard to accept that this is the way my life now. And I think that’s because I never thought that my life would be like this now. But life never turns out the way we want. If it did I’d be living in a beach house off the coast of Bali. I just feel like I can’t do anything for myself. And fear keeps rearing its evil head. I say “I want to move out of my parents house” “I want to teach abroad”, and I get a sudden surge of confidence, but then fear of judgment keeps coming up. I never felt like this that much in college. But I somehow feel that everyone is better than me. And it’s so bad that I don’t even want to attempt at anything that I really want to do because I fear that I might fail. And I also fear that if I fail people will talk.