Oh my goodness…
such pain
I am sorry

6 months isn’t so long to feel this much hurt and pain and rage.
I think it is kind of normal. But it is hurting you so bad and that is the problem. I get it.

You left your home for this man. Married him. 2 months later he is gone.
Yes, you are full rage mode mad!
Deserve to be as mad as hell.
And you would take him back.

Ok… now that is where I have to ask you why?

What is it about this particular man that is so wonderful that you want him back after how he has treated you?
Dear Lord in Heaven…..

I want you to get some SELF LOVE.

I know… I know…. you hurt and are angry and your life is ruined.

But it’s not.

Just know that in the depths of this pain and anger and rage at him that there is another beautiful life for you.
It will rise from these sorry ashes.
Just let that glimmer of true invade this sorrow for a second if you can.
Because I am praying for you.
And I know prayer changes things.

Hold on tight.

OK?

Don’t let this anger and rage rot away at you. Just don’t. Keep kicking it out the door until it is gone for good.

A day will come when you can let it go.

Your heart will open and a better, loving, honest, good man will sweep you off of your feet and you will know why this one left.

To make room for the true one.

Just allow yourself to believe this for a second.
K?