Dear Locutis,

I applaud you for staying strong, positive and also, trying your very best to rationalise and find some peace within yourself.

Well, I believe your subconscious already have the answer but your conscious mind is trying to suppress the voice because of the fear of reality and coming to terms with it.

Try recalling, What was the reason that you decided to marry her. perhaps too, take some time to ask her the same question. You or both of you, will come to an answer.:)

Life is impermanent and Life is a series of moments. Forming happy moments or sad ones, you decide. If she fades away from this world, would it matter to you? Go back to the point that both of you made the decision to be together. That could be the strength that both of you just need right now. 🙂

I’ll be praying for you. Namaste.